From the recent vlog, some of you mistaken me to being 'weak' or 'scared' to take the opportunity I had. Ok fair enough. I was definitely being a little dramatic from crying but hey! A girl can cry right? I was emotionally and physically exhausted. I was getting 1-2 hours of sleep a day on average. As for saying I should've went for the opportunity... I really do strive to push myself but only if it's for something that I feel for do something for me. A lot of people would think "Omgness! OPPORTUNITIES WOHOO GO FOR IT" but it doesn't mean it's something that will help everyone. Not every opportunity is for everybody. I'm in a time of my life there I want to do something that truly makes a difference now. I don't want to life life just thinking about myself anymore. I believe I can gain more when I give more now. I don't want to be on a big screen. I don't want to be "famous". I don't want to be filthy rich. I honestly truly just want to make a positive impact to the World now and in the process of finding out how I can do this. I know my next big thing will be INCREDIBLE because I want to do something that will give me MEANING. That's the difference. It's not that I was "scared". I knew it was a big thing. It will be big to a lot of people.. just maybe not for me because it just isn't something I wanted to do. It wasn't that I was ungrateful either. I was super grateful! I just again.. lol was exhausted... O_O
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